Your Life and this Wall!

Affairs, you had it all
You got it all somehow
Erecting along the waves
To go against the flow
You had it all!

Those dark nights and whispering air
Arrival signals!
Did no harm to anyone; playing fair
But unaware that a wall can grow
Yet you had it all!!

You moved ahead you lived
Leaving behind your shadows somehow
And left alone a little soul to appall
Exotic; he builds a wall
Joy of fractions and dead blow
You got it all!

And now,
No matter how many try to climb; and fall
Try to change, try to break the wall
Way too far the soul has gone
Don’t trust me, will ruin you when will fall

Affairs, you had it all
You got it all somehow
Erecting along the waves
Bouncing dancing against the flow
You had it all!!

The little adamant soul still frightens inside
The flinty wall!!

Bang bang!!

It’s been long since i wrote the Shimla – Reckong Peo bus trip. I think I never felt like writing after that may be I was too content with myself or with people from virtual world around. But today again I felt like betrayed again when the companion from virtual world forgot to tell me that I have gained nothing from last 4 months togetherness.

Anyways moving ahead, past one month has been a different experience all together. Weekdays are going working as usual and weekends were like drinking n all. Last Saturday I happen to go to a Mall in Gurgaon and there are some bars or pubs, whatever you called it, along the line of PVR cinema. This was first time for me and I was surprised to see what went inside those closed big door covered by big heavyweights’ called bouncers’. Under the heavy sound of DJ and crowed and beers and drinks of different kind and dancing girls pushing the drunks away and guys struggling to stand and wet floor; it’s a different life all together.

We went inside around 2000 hrs. The entry fee is 500 bucks and you get coupons of same amount to get yourself drink or something inside. We already had a beer outside. As the night came along, the crowed too started flowing like anything. Within an hour the entire floor was packed. This was first time for me so just danced and observed things around. Saw girls bargaining; dance with them was at 500 bucks and if you wanna have some shots it was a different price starting from 1500 bucks.

Do I call that a joy? May be it is.

But one thing is sure; inside you forget the world around you and just flow with the tunes of music. You get a companion as per your pocket and there is no regret on either side. The problem is for the badass like me, I was fully drunk and couldn’t even hold myself but then when I was romancing or was trying to romancing with music’s tune closing my eyes, and and all I could see was her face her eyes and all of her nothing else. So much crowed so much to enjoy yet alone, everyone was so strange and out of life.

Another thing I saw near the place where I live; there is some lonely stretch with a park along the road, some chakke who provide some services to their clients in open under the bunch of trees. I couldn’t gain courage to ask them the price and what all included in that service.

Tough days, but wish you have a wonderful trip there. Do some bang bang there as the name says!!

Let me Come to You!

Those big ‘need you kind of sparkling eyes
Saying you must be doing something right
When holding ‘would be betrayed hand
Caressing, walking around.
Eager I am; to be known
What happened there in the town!

This son of a bitch,
He talks and takes me there
But leaves me along the shore
Wondering I am; seeker but alone
My promises to him holds me tight
Intuitions, my vibes says you did right

The things that I don’t have hold on
I heard she has moved on,
And pearls of your eyes have drawn
That makes me miserable all the way down
What happened there in the town!

Hypocrite he is, a liar,
Says telling me the half truth
But me thinks his ‘topic’s phony
Snaps he sent look me too shabby
Let me garner more; you just hang on

Don’t howl my friend, welcome the dawn
Obliterate whatever happened there in the town!

Racing Life

Fire inside sullen mind
Strolling rays’ shining virgin mists
Wiggling creatures are lifting lids
Race has begun!!

Hopes’ smiling as the sun paints
Colorful cosmos, dream faints
Buoyant some

Rushing race going blind
Growing fire now blowing mind
Ready to break the wall;
Of past
Hitting and hitting, pushing the limits
Strolling rays’ shining virgin mists
Incredible Race!!

Rolling down pearls, briny!
Tilted head squeezes the body parts
Race is not meant for any halts
But for braves
Only to reach safely to our graves!!

For You!

So here I am;
Walking down the gallery,
Holding my hands in unison,
Trembling but begging for a permission,
Let me hold you once!

Up above are crossed stars
Or smiling moon tantalizes senses
‘Ignorance is bliss you say’
So be it; but it’s too late
How can I ever trust you again?

Fleeting time and,
Fiery yet glassy you,
Why colors’ of chameleons I say!
Truth sails the ocean called life,

Bubbling heart
Demands to get what it craves for
But for now,
Tired head asks for your shoulder
Let it rest there once!

Longing peace, nothing more!!

Currently Reading

Just about to finish “The Fault In Our Stars” by John Green. It’s a beautifully written book, humors’ the reader with some great writings. Loved some of the phrases like ‘pain demands to be felt’, ‘starts has tendency to cross’ and many more..

Great Book!!

Bus Trip: Shimla – Reckong Peo

5th of July afternoon I woke with a horrible dream; felt like all alone in a barren ocean. So packed the bag with a wind cheater a towel a book some toiletry items and headed towards the Kashmiri Gate ISBT.

While in metro towards was thinking where to go. Uttarakhand or HP or J&K and chose HP randomly with a decision that first bus boarding towards anywhere with be my destination. I found a Shimla going bus and booked a ticket.

Reached Shimla next morning and saw a bus going towards Lippa, there is a Buddha Monastery in Lippa. The route goes through Rampur-Reckong Peo. It’s an adventurous route in itself, running along the Sutlej River. It was blocked in-between and the linking route was 25 kms more with sharp 360 degree bends where bus couldn’t turn in a single go. That was the best part of the journey. A pure work of hard work and craft on hard rock.

At evening reached Reckong Peo and decided to halt there. Like all the border areas, here too I could see all govt. officials, didn’t felt good so walked across the semi open market and boarded the last Shimla going bus at 0730pm.

Next morning I was in Shimla. Gave myself a tea party; hey c’mon it was my birthday!!

Initial plan was to go to Dehradun to visit a old buddy of mine to have a scooty ride to some watery place but the time crunch; first Dehradun going bus from there was suppose to reach at evening so decided to head back to Delhi.

Life still seems unreasonable sometime. It is like ending everything and start it again with all the freshness but as they say; time goes on’ so do everything else around us’. I didn’t want to be sitting alone at my empty smelly room on my birthday so was this trip. Though there was nothing to witness or something majestic about it but being with the road somewhat solved the problem.

I wish to have some good year to live by and most importantly have some close good companionship; yes, I know I have started talking about company, I think have lived a lot alone.

Happy Birthday to me!! Belated by 3 days now though!